Babies

Today Teagan, Jade and I were playing in the play room. Jade was being really cute and silly. I was down on my knees at Teagan's little table watching Teagan put together legos and she would climb up my back slide down and say weeeee. After that I started playing with her and tickling her. She would laugh so hard. I asked Teagan if we should have more babies. He said, "YES!" Followed by, "We would already have one but the one in your tummy died." Very matter of factly. Not mournful. I thought for a second and pointed out that we wouldn't have it yet. It would have been born in April.

I was proud of him in those moments. At first I wasn't sure why but now I think I'm proud that he is willing to talk about it. I'm also proud of us as parents that he feels safe to talk about it. I'm also surprised. From the time we lost the baby until now seems like a very long time. I think life stood still there for a while. Yet from right now I would still have four months to go. Things are now back to normal. I'm finally excited about life again. Amazing what hormones can do to you. Odd that my excitment for crafts, projects and just life in general returns with my hormones finally leveling out.

I'm sorry if this post is sad for anyone. It's not meant to be at all. I just wanted to be sure to record what kind of little man we have in Teagan. I want Jade to know that her fun personality makes us want more children. Lastly I want our future children to know that they were wanted very much by all of us.